Ballet talk

Sick Days..

 

It’s 8am here, and I had an urge to write. I’ve been sick with the flu for the last couple of days and I unfortunately can’t do much besides attending weekly ballet classes (which I still do even though I am sick!) You might have noticed I have changed my site name and username too! There is a good reason for this.

Although Ballet is a big part of my life I don’t think I can possibly live in just the “Ballet World.” I think it’s important to look at other aspects of life that may be of interest to different people. I would like to convey this artistic and creative side of me that not only includes Ballet but also other things which include my life, uni, photography and other hobbies I have like health and fitness, inspiring posts and other lifestyle things like travel <3.

Lately, I have been watching a lot of TEDtalks, many of which discuss topics like self discovery, career, dreams and success. Of the many talks a quote that stuck with me is

“You don’t have to have it all figured out to move forward.”

this quote really stuck with me and I think it relates to a lot of people out there too. For me it is to do with my love of dance. I don’t want to be pessimistic or wishful but I think a classical ballet career would not be something I can fulfil in the future considering my age or my technical ability as of now. I think my mindset has kind of changed and now I am accepting of the fact that it may not be a professional life I would be able to have but an art that will stay with me through life. Really looking inside of me, into my authentic self has really gave me more relief than I thought. Now, I am not stressed in class to do everything right. I can take it easy and go at my own pace. Who knows there might be a possibility of me taking on a career in a contemporary ballet company or a small ballet company. 😉I truly believe if dance is for me then there is always a way for it to fit into my life despite adversities.

“Never stop believing because miracles happen every day.”

this is where this quote comes into play. Life is so unexpected and even miracles take a little time to happen. 😉I was waiting outside my studio for class to start he other day when a little girl made me realize how I have already achieved my dream: “Look there are the ballerinas!” (or something along the lines of that). In my mind I was thinking: “No, only professionally, and technically sound dancers can be called Ballerinas!” But then not a lot of people know that and it made my day. 🙈😝People already seem me as a ballerina… It made me remember why Ballet is in my life. Not because of the glamour or the final performance but for the progress you achieve everyday (although I kind of hate and love it at the same time!😂)How about you, do you love the process too?


There you go my friends an honest revelation into my thoughts and doubts that I have had for quite a while…

Certainly don’t be discouraged by my view in ballet, I am still hopeful for the future. After all, isn’t happiness all we want in life? To be able to dance everyday is a blessing I feel everyday.

Lots of love,

Maymen (this is actually my full name but I went by May- to keep it more anonymous but now I feel like I want to be more open in my future posts!) 👍🏼Happy Monday!🌞

 

Some places I have been…

  

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Ballet talk · Studio life

for the love of ballet….

#whyballet

Ballet is in my life because of how beautiful and alive it makes my life seem. When I dance it makes me feel confident and alive, like I can achieve whatever is ahead of me, able to conquer the world with every step I take .In every fluid movement I make and in every graceful touch, I feel my soul shines significantly brighter. A lot of people seem to think Ballet makes them forget the world but I believe Ballet doesn’t drown out the world ,but it makes me appreciate the beauty of it despite the suffering and darkness that exists.It, to me, is a part of the light of the world that will cause the darkness to be blinded for a moment. Even though it may be technically and physically demanding it is worth it in the end. Even though I may fail it teaches me to fail with grace and in the end no one will notice your flaws but remember your efforts. 


Lately I have been seeing this tag on Instagram “#whyballet” I thought I might give it a shot about why I love it so much. I have also been thinking a lot about loving ballet itself and not being influenced by others. I have found myself being sucked into the ballet community on Instagram and though it may be good in some ways such as providing me with motivation and connecting me to other dancers out there it can also cause me great turmoil inside, majority of it is unhappiness. Instead of focusing on improving on my own progress I find myself constantly looking into the lives of others and what they are doing. I knew that I was unhappy and so I did what my heart told me to do. I unfollowed a lot of people who mind you are amazing people and decided to follow people who were in the same boat as me -who started late.

Yesterday I was back in the studio again practicing RAD Intermediate. I had a belief that I would try my best and give the class everything I got. Before class I had watched an intermediate rad video from YouTube and even arrived 45 minutes early to warmup -in another studio room next to the one we practiced in. Leg stability was a focus I practiced and also core work too. I ended up having an amazing class, my adage in centre was super stable and even my focus lasted much longer.Usually I would be so frazzled I would lose my focus and mess up. Around 90% of my class was well grasped by me and I was super happy with myself. 😊 But I think the most important aspect of this class was my expression.  For a long time my love of ballet really shone through. I was smiling when doing barre and centre, I think my teacher saw it too. She was quite happy afterwards as was I.

Me before class yesterday stretching out and pre-warming up. Middle splits have been my focus for a long time. I think I’m making progress 😉

Empty studio = happiness Happiness = Empty Studio

Me again taking a selfie of myself in an empty studio. There is nothing like an empty studio where you have the whole space to yourself to practice. This week it was brises.

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My pirouettes have also been improving too, currently I can do clean doubles on both sides and a clean double en dedan to the right! Last summer I spent so much time practicing at home trying to get a perfect single and also struggling to get a double now I can do both! Practice does make it better!

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Looking forward to tomorrow’s class. 🙃 Right now I am focusing on my intermediate exam and preparing for it. Anyone have any tips for exams?

Thanks for taking the time to read this!

Beaucoup d’amour

May-

Life encounters

Mystery Blogger Award

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Thank you fbcballerina for nominating me for this award. I really appreciate it! Xxx She is a fellow ballet dancer who has started her journey at an unconventional period of her life unlike most dancers who start out young. Similar to me she shares her love of ballet and explores it in her blog and also her instagram. Do go and give her a look.

Update:Also, thank you Shireen for nominating me too! She is also another dance blogger who shares her story about her life long journey in dance especially in her young adult years. Check her out!

What is the mystery Blog Award?

It’s an award dedicated to bloggers out there who are deserving of their undying love and passion for what they blog about. That somehow inspire you and motivate you when you read their blog. A blogger that you think should be awarded because you believe they should be recognized and discovered by more people out there. This is also a way to create a friendly community and build a link between bloggers in the blogosphere. (To view the original post of Okoto Oke Engima please click here!)

RULES

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

3 THINGS ABOUT ME:

“Tell me about yourself”-When people ask me this question I try to make it as interesting as possible and not go done the generic route.

  1. I am drawn to a lot of old things. I Love Classical music, (My favourite Composer is probably Joe Hisaishi, click to listen!) the old architecture and old classic books and tea(herbal tea)! I really love things all things classic. That is also one of the reasons why I love Ballet, hence my pursuit of it.
  2. I live in Ireland. A small and remote island near Britain. Even though it is a first world country there is a lot of nature around. I was born towards the end of the 90’s so I had a great childhood that consisted of going outside, picking flowers, playing in rivers.
  3. I have 4 sisters. I am the 4th oldest and also the youngest of the lot because I was born a twin. At the same time I am the oldest out of the twins. 😅 my oldest sister and I am ten years apart. By the time I was in secondary school they pretty much have moved out leaving my twin sister and I at home. So began my life as the oldest sibling in the house. I have the best of both world you could say. 😌

 

NOW FOR THE NOMINEES!

  1. Emilee for her awe-inspiring story beautifully written.
  2. Elena for chasing her dream in ballet and her story behind it.
  3. Maysa Rose   another ballet blog in which she speaks about all types of interesting topics. She also has a way with words.
  4. Miss AuChatBleu a beautiful blog with a lovely theme with interesting insights into different topics
  5. Jessica  for her bravery to pursue her dreams.
  6. Alessia  for her motivating journey of a dancer who gives amazing tips and tricks of the trade.
  7. Nicole  a beautiful blog
  8. Sung Eun Rose for her ability to share
  9. Arissa Ayumi for sharing her story from the other side of the world
  10. Ella for her insightful and sophisticated posts about ballet

 

My questions for my nominees:

1.Which childrens book character would you want to be? 

I think I would be Sophie from Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana Wynn Jones. Growing up they were my favourite books alongside Narnia and other high  fantasy books like Harry Potter. To be able to become old and carry on living is a bravery I really admire in Sophie. (If you don’t know Sophie is turned into an old woman by a mean witch in this story)

 

2. What was the last thing you went out of your comfort zone for?

I would say ever since I have dropped out of Uni that is my biggest venture out of my comfort zone that lead to a domino of other things I find uncomfortable for me. As a reserved person, talking to people on streets and going to places I haven’t been by myself is probably one of these things.

3.Where do you want to travel to? There are a great deal of places I want to go so I will have to make a list of all these place: (they are in no particular Order)

  1. Egypt, Sewa, Cairo, Alexandria
  2. Iceland, Reykjavik
  3. All Scandinavian Countries (Norway, Denmark, Sweden)
  4. France, Nice, small french villages, Paris
  5. Monaco, Monte Carlo
  6. Spain, Barcelona, Madrid and Andalusia
  7. Italy, Naples, Florence ( As an art student I would love to see the impressive art they have in person <3), Positano (top place on my bucket list!)
  8. Greece, Athens, Santorini
  9. Hawaii
  10. South Africa, Capetown
  11. Belgium,
  12. Austria, Vienna
  13. England, London (I’ll be going there this summer! Yay!)

This is my list for the moment!

4.Which adjective dsecribes you the best?

Kind, compassionate, silly and Positive!

5.If you could only do one sport for the rest of your life which one would it be?

I don’t have a sport in mind, but if there was one physical activity that I would keep up it would have got to be ballet. Doing Ballet changes you for the better. I can already see the way it is changing my body. Muscles I haven’t been aware of are activated and it really teaches you patience and discipline. Sometimes when I waiting for the bus I see myself subconsciously standing in third position and it really has made me all the more graceful. I would really recommend it. 😉

 

Now for the question I have for my nominees. 😉

  1. Where do you see yourself in 5 years time?
  2. What is your favourite place on earth?
  3. Why is your passion your passion?
  4. Where (a place) does your heart draw you to?
  5. What is the wildest dream you ever dreamed?

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Hope you liked reading a little about moi! There will be more soon!

à la prochaine!

beaucoup d’amour

May-

 

Ballet talk

Bye bye 2017 and Awaiting 2018

Happy New Year Everyone!

2017 was my hardest year by far and I’m not going to lie, it wasn’t my best year but I’m grateful for the lessons it has taught me. From dancing in my first intensive, turning 18, finding a job, finding myself passionless in my major it certainly is and was one of the most pivotal part of my life.

What it taught me is that things take time to develop. I’ll admit I’m not the most patient person in the world. However, I am working on it consistently. I think ballet has taught me this because of the slow improvements I see and actually I feel so much more appreciation for these small achievement. Just recently I can actually understand how to engage my leg muscles when standing next to the barre. I can feel more control in my movements and I now notice some mistakes that I have been doing that I didn’t realize at all. I always seem to arch my back and not engage my pelvis, I don’t know why but it seems to just happen so now I am focusing diligently on fixing this.

Flexibility:

This year I really want to focus on increasing my flexibility. It didn’t take me long to get both sides of my splits but there is no other improvement. I want to overcome this by stretching every day if not every other day doing splits against the wall and middle splits and a better leg hold! I want to be able to hold my leg closer to my head in a standing position. Currently it is 45 degrees ways from my head and I would like to improve this.

Strength:

As for strength I would like to increase the height of my developpe which is a little below 90 degrees. With more practice I can certainly achieve this! If you haven’t read my post about my goals. You can read it by clicking on the link if you want. These goals are still my goals, nothing has really changed except maybe knowing more than I previously did.

What I didn’t include was my pointe work in the post from the link. I’m still trying to get over the box. Anyone have any tips for this? I would very much appreciate the help. I have been consistently doing relevees on one foot for the last week. Hopefully it will stay consistent. I really hope it does improve. I will admit 2017 hasn’t been my most motivated period and I did spend more time as a couch potato than practicing and improving myself. There certainly have been times of lows when I feel like giving up and believing maybe being a dancer isn’t for me? But it never leaves me, the dream follows me and though I may say otherwise, I can’t seem to let it go….

This is my 4 month progress since I got my first pointe shoes in August 2017 to now. I am definitely more over the box. My feet look more stronger and my control is much more noticeable.

My turmoil leaves me stagnant and unmotivated to dance. On a brighter note, I will hopefully be taking my intermediate RAD exam this summer. Though my teacher believes I may not be strong enough or know the setting enough unless I keep working as I have now. I will definitely try and I honestly am a bit nervous and excited since I haven’t taken a ballet exam before.

Wishing everyone a hopeful beginning and a fresh start.

Love,

May- xx

Life encounters

City in winter

Although Autumn is my favourite months nothing can compare to the beautiful Christmas lights surrounding the city. Though probably not as pretty as London the city where I live is beautiful in its own, as small as it is. Below are some recent pictures I have taken over the last week. I realised the pictures I have taken all were during a time where the weather was its best. 🤣 Most of the time it is cloudy and dull and rains a lot… But somehow I managed to make it look beautiful. ❤️

“It’s the most beautiful time of the year”

What is your favourite time of the year? For me it is certainly Autumn though Winter has its own special appeal. Unfortunately there is no snow this year and the weather forecast seem to predicate that a white Christmas will not be in store. 😌

But there’s always next year! Who know what the future will have in store for us, only time will tell.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays! 🌲☃️

See you in my next post!

May-

Ballet talk

why I started…

Hi eveyone! Happy holidays and only 11 days left until Christmas!

Recently I have been distracted and a bit mind-blown about life. At the moment I am trying to find myself and it seems only dance is the real rock for me that keeps me grounded and sure of myself. Then it got me thinking, how did I come to realize it was something I wanted to do?

In all honesty, I don’t know how it started. I have never been to a ballet before or either to a ballet studio so how did it happen? It might have been the t.v that made me intrigued and fascinated with this art form. Maybe a commercial here and there that conveyed a picture perfect image of a ballerina in her moment of true excitement and passion on stage?

What I do know is that I grew up watching a cartoon, an anime to be exact that showed a beautiful girl with a beautiful but sad story. And yes, ballet was a pivotal part of it. It was after all, called “Princess Tutu”. (Really go check it out and you will understand why I was so inspired ;))

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this was my childhood! ❤

Granted, now that I am a bit older I not naive to the world of Dance, which can hard, cruel and extremely difficult. But even so, I feel like in every dancer there is sort of magic that exists that sparks significance into a show. Perhaps that is why ballet still exists today because it reminds us of a part of ourselves that is truly magical and hopeful.  A world where we can appreciate and become our inner child and dream like we once did.

Of course, I wasn’t just inspired by the magic that exists on stage, but by the beautiful way people moved and the story they often told. Whether it was Sleeping Beauty, Swan Lake, Cinderella, I truly loved each and every one of them. How were you inspired to be a dancer? Was it by watching a ballet? Or maybe a part of you already knew you wanted to be a dancer…the stage is yours…


A short and sweet post but hopefully a little bit insightful. 😉 And can you believe there is only 11 days until Christmas, time seems to be flying by so quickly and the end of the week is also drawing near..

As always see you in my next post,

Adieu,

May- xx

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Beautiful words with a beautiful meaning. 🙂
Ballet talk · Life encounters · Studio life

Lost

Happy first of December! Weather is getting cold and staying in bed is something I look forward to each day. Hby?

Some Christmas inspiration for you all! ✨🎅🏼🤶🏼🌲

Today I went out and took these amazing photos. Aren’t they beautiful?

Its has been a while since my last post. How are you all doing?I haven’t reviewed class in a while either. I just had one the other day and one soon! (Saturday)

As usual class was great and though it was hard at times I really enjoyed it.; For the first time I did the whole class in my pointe shoes. My teacher recommended it to help break my pointe shoes because they were and still are, rock hard. 😂 Every time I walk or jump my shoes would be ringing and I am terribly flustered by it. You see I am usually the unnoticeable one in the classroom and it is not any different in the studio.

Just as I was getting the hang of balancing on flat shoes the pointe shoes took it to another level. 😭 But I’m so happy with the progress I am getting from wearing them. My legs are aching especially my calves after the other night’s class and it doesn’t usually happen often. Also I have noticed I hold my breath a lot during class and it always make me red in the face. Anyone else do this too?

Below represents well how I feel at the moment in regards to my mental and physical body. Tired. Confused. In turmoil.

I haven’t been quite honest with you guys. I have been awfully lost these past few weeks trying to discover what I am truly want to pursue in the future. Hence, for not posting in a while. I have mentioned previously I was attending college majoring in Computer Science. After several weeks into the course-maybe 2 months and a few weeks I have realised it just wasn’t for me. I was struggling a lot and it stressed me out so much. I hate to think of what I would be like if I survived 1st and started 2nd year.

I hated that ballet was placed in the back seat of my mind. All I was doing was going to class anxiously waiting for the next exam and waiting for the next day to arrive. I lacked motivation to practice my dancing and I wasn’t even happy.

In all honesty, I had previously told people close to me countless times during the last two months that I didn’t think it was the right choice for me but right after these conversations I would decide to continue on…

This is NOT a good thing to do! One thing I would say to anyone out there is that if you are ever doubting something whether you should do something or not don’t do it. It will save you time and you will be much happier.

Last week, I went to my programme office and told them of what I wanted to do, that was to withdraw from my course. This means I’m course-less at the moment! 😭 I will have to wait until next year to reapply for another uni. Right now, I’m thinking of finding a much needed job to supplement me. Wish me luck!

On a brighter note, dancing will be of greater focus since I am officially-(kind of) taking a gap year? Still I know I will be returning to uni soon. I also think I may have found the right course after countless days of research and YouTube videos. 😂 And this time I really feel it is something I see myself doing. I guess only time will tell what will happen in the future. I am also not forgetting my dream of being a dancer. But I have realised it is not a firing passion as it once was for me to become professional. Of course I will continue with dancing throughout my life and with this I will grow and develop my technique. I think a part of me is already accepting the fact that my chances are pretty slim now. But that doesn’t stop me from dancing. It would be a pleasure though if I had a fighting chance. A part of me is hopeful yet accepting too.

Somehow something clicked in me. Yes I want to pursue this dream but is it realistic?

A heartfelt post for you all and a tiny bit depressing.

I was debating whether to post this as I feel it is way too personal but I think all my followers (who are amazing!) have the right to know. It’s incredible the people you can meet through just writing. I am extremely grateful for you all.

As always,

Lots of ❤️

See you in my next post!

May- Xx